2016..A YEAR COMES..

COLORES INFINITUM

Why do we celebrate events like a ‘new year day’ – in every calendar – when it doesn’t bring any qualitative change in life in practical terms? After all, if we don’t count exceptions, nothing much changes on a ‘tomorrow’ than what it is on a ‘today’.

Well, it’s symbolic and therefore is important.

It is always between ‘what is going to change from one calendar day to the next’ and ‘every day is a new day, a reservoir of hopes, a new opportunity to do, undo or redo things’.

And it is always better to go with the later one – every day is a new day and every day is a new ‘you’.

Welcome 2016. Adieu 2015.

Reflect on. Retrospect. Introspect. And look ahead.

To reflect on the days ahead. To recharge yourself. With this symbolic milestone.

A symbolic milestone that comes every year.

It is for you to look at it – so why won’t we do it in a positive, uplifting mode?

Yes, life is very unpredictable – and so are its difficulties – with moments that let you down – with letdowns that lock you in an inertia.

But pragmatism tells to always look ahead – at the point beyond that letdown. It is only you who can break the run of inertia in your life – it is only you who can win over the psychological entrapments that you have built around yourself.

Life’s experiences should tell us that there is no substitute, no alternative, but to fight back – when life is dragging you down. Kill those jinxes that work to darken your path.

After all, apart from your family, who else stands with you emotionally? Everyone else either has a fleeting attention to the problems you are facing or a ‘knack’ to exploit you more in your hours of crisis.

The sum total is – there is no one else but you who’ll stand for you – and there is no one else but your family that will stand for you.

So, rules of the games point in just one direction – stay along and against the odds you face while trying to live life the way you seek.

Days like January 1 or December 31, now a universal phenomenon, are important milestones to take stock of how the time has gone by so far – and how you need to look ahead – to measure your life so far – with an element of periodicity.

And a touch of celebration is always welcome in this exercise.

Adieu 2015. Welcome 2016.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

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2015 GOES BY..REFLECTING ON..

It is always between ‘what changes from one calendar day to the next’ and ‘every day is a new day, a reservoir of hopes, a new opportunity to do, undo or redo things’.

And it is always better to go with the later one – every day is a new day and every day is a new ‘you’.

Welcome 2016. Adieu 2015.

Reflect on. Retrospect. Introspect.

To reflect on the days ahead. To recharge yourself. With this symbolic milestone.

A symbolic milestone that comes every year.

It is for you to look at it – so why won’t we do it in a positive, uplifting mode?

Yes, life is very unpredictable – and so are its difficulties – with moments that let you down – with letdowns that lock you in an inertia.

But pragmatism tells to always look ahead – at the point beyond that letdown. It is only you who can break the run of inertia in your life – it is only you who can win over the psychological entrapments that you have built around yourself.

Life’s experiences should tell us that there is no substitute, no alternative, but to fight back – when life is dragging you down. Kill those jinxes that work to darken your path.

After all, apart from your family, who else stands with you emotionally? Everyone else either has a fleeting attention to the problems your are facing or a ‘knack’ to exploit you more in your hours of crisis.

Anyway, that was about migrating from one year to the next – here in this case, from December 31, 2015 to January 1, 2016.

So..what has been my account of the year?

Diversified. Challenging. With my share of highs and lows. With my problems and with my triumphs. Like it happens in every life.

The many things that I had thought to do this year – some of them I could do – some of them are works in progress – and some of them are in advanced stages of ideation – and some of them are in still pipeline – something that always happens – in every life – and I have learnt to enjoy it this way.

I successfully developed my personal website this year – which I treat as my web journal – and so far, I have been engaged with it looks and progress. I had taken the domain name last year but the development with a professional touch came this year – and it was in sync with what I had thought when I was beginning 2015.

While reflecting back on 2014 on December 31 last year, I had decided that I would devote more time to my books and would limit my online publishing activity to once a day. Now, when I am reflecting back on 2015, on a December 31 exactly one year later, I am already more than a post a day – so far 431 posts this year in 364 days with this December 31 yet to go.

2015 was the fourth consecutive year on my writing and publishing pledge when I could maintain the discipline of writing or creating something daily – something that I had begun on October 15, 2011 – though with a random thought – with no long terms goals – but with ‘every day’ convictions.

I still have no goals. My driver is the sense of satisfaction that I draw after creating something from discipline of doing it daily.

Yes, I regret that I could not work that much on my books as I had thought, but what is relieving is that I know that why I could not do so and that I would do something concrete with them in the days to come.

Like I have been doing with my writing and with my creativity, I could do all that I needed to – with diversity as the leitmotif – in articles, in essays, in poetry, in images, in quotes, in fiction.

All that I have been through in 2015 I cannot write here and I should not write here, but while moving to the next year with the symbolic importance of January 1 – of ‘newness and hope’ – I have no bad feeling about how 2015 passed – but good reasons to look ahead and positive energy to work further.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

BEYOND THIS LIFE: 2000 POSTS ON 2 OCTOBER

Yesterday, I posted 2000th post on ‘Beyond This Life, my first blogging platform.

In over six years, since I started writing in organized way – since then, I have diversified my content platforms – starting other blogs and a complete website last year – but so far, ‘Beyond This Life’ has been the only omnibus place.

And though, I had not planned it, it came on October 2, on birth anniversary of Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi or Mahatma Gandhi or Bapu.

I see my writing endeavors as an ongoing journey. I write extensively and as people say – quite prolifically – and completing a milestone point on this journey on the day I was writing on my best ideal from the contemporary political world – from the modern political history of the world – was a pleasant chance event.

I have learnt to celebrate myself – I enjoy going within – and I do so all the time. I feel it’s the best remedy to coexist with life. But on some days, with reasons like this, you feel special about yourself – and no doubt, my ‘celebration’ was charmed by this chance occurrence.

I started with first post on ‘Beyond This Life’ on July 1, 2009 and completed six years on July 1 this year – the day that I celebrate with ‘myself’ as my ‘blogging day’. In these six years, I have shaped three more blogs and one professional looking website that is my personal web journal.

I write on and about everything that clicks me. My posts include analytical write-ups, research based write-ups, social writings, life experiences, satires, fiction, poetry and photography.

The good thing about it is – that I feel after six years – that my flow is free of targets and goalposts. I had not thought of what I would write about next when I had started ‘Beyond This Life’, and I still don’t plan what I would post next. I just try to maintain the continuity with a ‘daily rhythm’ to satisfy my urge.

Yes, when you walk on a journey, you have different stages when you reflect back on to take stock to look further. For me, the correlating wavelength is the body of writing that I have been able to put together – some of it online and most of it offline.

I do not have plans on what I would write next – beyond my thought process hinged on this ‘beautiful coincidence – my 2000 posts on 2nd October – the day that now the world observes as the ‘International Day of Non-Violence’ – in a rightful spirit to pay tribute to the great who became ‘the universal conscience of humanity’.

It was indeed a day of doubled up joy for me.

Beyond This Life

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

JULY 1 AGAIN :)

COLORES INFINITUM

Then, in 2009, it was Wednesday, on July 1. Now, in 2014, on its 5th Anniversary, it’s Tuesday.

That was the line with which I has started my write-up last year on July 1, the anniversary day, if I should say, to reflect on my journey so far.

On July 1, 2009, I had posted my first entry on ‘Beyond This Life’ – http://severallyalone.blogspot.in/ – a write-up on Dr. Binayak Sen’s case.

Its Wednesday again, on July 1, when I am completing six years on this journey, that I know will take me to the place I am aiming for.

I continued with my writing efforts like in the previous years – trying to go deeper into what I think about – trying to add more to what I have been writing about. Yes, this year, less of it was in public domain through my blogs and more in personal records.

Also, this year, I have been able to put together my personal website – http://www.santoshchaubey.com – and it is developing in a good overall platform now. I intend to develop it as a personalized web journal with different categories devoted to individual themes.

July 1 is my personal blogging day. Six years ago, on July 1, without any thoughts, I had embarked on a journey to give me an opportunity to write in an organized way.

Six year after, when I reflect back, I see a journey that that has been consistent, diversified and has vivid memories to motivate me to do more on the path.

To quote from my write-up last year – “Words do fail, as I wrote a poem ‘Words, Almost As They Fail’, but on my blogs, they come to stay with me and July 1, my Personal Blogging Day, is the day for me to revisit the days so far to look ahead.”

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

REFLECTING ON..AS A YEAR COMES..

For the love of writing
With the thrill of ride
For the joy of thinking
With a canvas so wide

To nature’s hallways
To its rhythmic slopes
To nature’s galleries
Through its sky ropes

For the love of writing
In the mood of romantics
For the pull of reflecting
In the league of semantics

My story in 365 days
My stories of 365 days
A life rejoiced every day
A though lived on its way

Writing it on my days
Riding it on my ways
Aiming high all it says
Thinking right all it prays

That is what is to be
It was what set me free
A life in own company
A thought in its harmony

Reflecting on as a year comes
Writing on as its day beckons
So far, the trip has been fine
And the pleasure is all mine..

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey –https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

OCTOBER 16, 2014: THREE ‘UNBROKEN’ YEARS ON ‘BEYOND THIS LIFE’

October 16: My Third Blogging Milestone Day

Yesterday, I completed three years of posting something, on a day to day rhythm, a work of mine – an article, a photograph, a quote, a poem or digital experiments on images – at least one of them every day, on this blog here, Beyond This Life*, my first blog that I created on July 1, 2009.

On October 16 in 2011, it was now some days that I had been thinking of making it a routine, a discipline, to look for ‘meaningful’ meanings in life after a series of huge emotional setbacks that had left me almost devastated, emotionally as well as existentially.

I was continuing with life, yet I was not living it. Throughout my whole life till then, I had arrived at meanings of events and elements of life on my own, with my identity firmly in place. And I bought what I spoke. I lived for what I was, for what my thoughts were.

But, the series of setbacks left me rushing for to call the meanings that had been pivotal so far. They had stopped responding. There was a nagging element of deepening mutual irrelevance. And my devastation was so acute that I was not able even to track down the meaning of the ‘meanings’ with the energy I was left with, even if I could. Something was killing ‘a person’ in me. My honestly cultivated life of ‘living severally alone’ was taking a severe beating, by detractors, by time, by moments, and by the people I cared for.

But like it is said the absolute hopelessness has elements of hope in-built; that there comes the lowest point on fall beyond which the journey goes always up.

I am yet to dissect on ‘what led to’, or probably I am not willing to look into at this moment, but I could see that ray of hope, I could identify those elements to pick up to enable me to be on the journey up.

And one of those major elements was this discipline with writing and posting something daily on my blog, something that was my own creation. Before it, my blog did have entries of others, though very few in numbers, but after it, it was all mine.

It was first on October 14 that year when I decided to begin but somehow could not post the October 15 entry in time. By the time I hit the ‘publish’ button, it was already October 16. But that was it. I posted another one on October 16, 2011 and it has been continued since then.

Yes, I had no idea on how long to go with, some future roadmap on it, a timeframe for which I would like to continue doing so. To sum up, it had no ultimate goal.

It built on day after day, week after week, month after, and then, year after year. There were small ‘scales’ to scale. There were small goals to achieve. There were randomly made thoughts to work on. And the events followed the continuity on the chain. With the central theme being maintaining the continuity, to have the chain remain unbroken.

It was a gradual healing, in stages, from one benchmark to next. The element chosen here pushed me to think more, think diverse and helped me think away. Here is how I have lived up these years so far on ‘Beyond This Life’.

October 16, 2011 to October 15, 2014 – 1096 days
October 16, 2011 to October 15, 2014 – 1352 posts
October 16, 2011 to October 15, 2012 – 374 posts
October 16, 2012 to October 15, 2013 – 439 posts
October 16, 2013 to October 15, 2014 – 539 posts

These figures are what define my journey on ‘Beyond This Life’ so far, scaling up gradually, like the healing.

What began as an urge to explore and write something day after day is now an urge that comes with a joy of creating every day, writing on range of issues, writing on life, clicking life, experimenting with words and images.

And the satisfying part of it is I still feel the same urge, a call that helps me to remain focused on exploring more and learning more – learning on the journey to life.

And like October 16, 2011, still, I do not have set goals to achieve or ‘scales’ to scale, but the motivation to feel the joy of having created something of my own at the end of the day.

*Beyond This Life – http://severallyalone.blogspot.in/

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

OCTOBER 15: MY SECOND BLOGGING MILESTONE DAY

Blogging Milestone Day Number 1: July 11 – when I completed 1000 days of continuous blogging in July this year – at least a blog-post a day without a break

Blogging Milestone Day Number 2: October 15 – completing three years of blogging without a break – averaging more than a post a day

Completing three years today on a journey that took a spontaneous change with no further thoughts on the roadmap ahead, driven by the only urge to look for the ‘other life’ in life – the journey that was to become a liberating experience, a joy to free the senses from bondages and from baggage – a learning to learn each day and keep on leaning every next day.

Completing three years today on this journey that has given me the strength of being a liberated soul who fights back and tries to overcome – day after day.

Completing three years today on the journey treasuring and assimilating the joy of creating through expressions and expressing through creations – work after work.

Completing three years today on the journey flowing on words, making the words flow, capturing life on the go, capturing motion in the moving stillness – from this genre to that.

Completing three years today on the journey, a journey of going beyond, a journey on the path to the ‘oneness with the soul’.

Completing three years today, October 15, 2014, on this continued, unbroken chain on the journey that had its formal initiation on an organized platform of expression on July 1, 2009 with my first blog, ‘Beyond This Life’*.

Yes, it has been a journey of experiences in thoughts ever since I started working on ‘Beyond This Life’ in 2009 but its more rigorous, rewarding and satisfying phase began on October 16, 2011 when I found myself embarked on a journey within me that had so much to say and express.

October 15, 2014 – its three years now from the October day in 2011 on ‘Beyond This Life’ and it still speaks to me in the way it had spoken to me on October 16, 2011.

* Beyond This Lifehttp://severallyalone.blogspot.in/

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

JULY 11: MY FIRST BLOGGING MILESTONE DAY

Some simple pointers first:

October 16, 2011 to July 11, 2014 – 1000 days
October 16, 2011 to December 31, 2011 – 77 days – 79 posts
January 1, 2012 to December 31, 2012 – 366 days – 400 posts
January 1, 2013 to December 31, 2013 – 365 days – 430 posts
January 1, 2013 – July 11, 2014 – 192 days – 319 posts

October 16, 2011 to July 11, 2014 – 1000 days – 1228 posts (excluding this one) —

It’s been long that writing became my favourite activity, my trusted companion and my disciplined release from the life of the day, of the moments, and completing 1000 days without any break is the moment to look back again on this recent past, to reflect on what has become one of the mainstay journeys of my life – today is a milestone event on this journey – a day to retrospect – a day to go retrospective on my life and on my life through my written works – obviously the whole work doesn’t get to my blogs now (four, with different specifications) – even if 25% of it, blogging is still the primary tool for me to be disciplined with writing – and completing a period of 1000 days without a break tells me the discipline has been able to follow its course so far – and reminds me of the need to continue with it – for this – this is a Milestone Day for my blogging – and for my writing discipline.

It is not that I began blogging on October 16, 2011. That was in July 2009.

October 16, 2011 was a random event when my life was exploring ways to overcome one of the biggest setbacks of my life that had happened some months ago.

I always felt good after writing but it was probably different and liberating of the moments that day that motivated me to write one more the same day and another one the next day.

And the feeling sustained.

And thus, my writing continued – from one week to other – from one month to the next – and then year-on-year was there – the feel of reflecting on life and on life around me – the sense of going Beyond This Life – the urge to speak my mind on events catching my attention and pushing me to think – the pleasure to go inside and create moments through my words, through the photographs clicked by me – the bliss that was taken away had a way to come back – with the joy of writing – with the joy of creating.

And July 11, my first Blogging Milestone Day with my first blog, Beyond This Life*, is a day for me to reflect on, to think over, with this sense of satisfaction.

*http://severallyalone.blogspot.in/

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

JULY 1: MY PERSONAL BLOGGING DAY

Personally, it’s a day for me to look back on one of the milestone developments of my life, the day that was the first step in organizing my writing – July 1, my Personal Blogging Day – with ‘Beyond This Life’, my first blog.

And it has been on the job – five years now – since I started writing a blog – the 5th anniversary of my formal initiation with blogging – on July 1, 2009 with the ‘Inhuman Humanity’.

By soul, I have always been a development activist and though it was not planned, in the hindsight, I feel good that my first blog-post was an article on human rights (in the context of Dr. Binayak Sen’s case who was released on bail recently and the state’s role in his trial and the role of state in inflicting greater hardships on the internally displaced persons (IDPs) in India and it’s surroundings).

How did it all begin: I don’t have any concrete idea since when I had started thinking about writing a blog. Yes, but the thoughts were there, long before I began it formally in July 2009. What was not there was the push, needed to initiate me on a regular writing spree.

It came as a result of some factors that still give me mixed feelings. Back then, it was concurrence of some events and the associated emotional assimilations – inspiration, motivation, betrayal, answerability, reasoning and the subsequent need to look inside – and as more and more clarity, with its obvious shock and liberating effects, emerged – my writing started getting more in-tune, in-sync, with me to write more and write regularly.

With every year, the ‘consistency’ got more regular, especially in the last three years.

The journey and the discipline: The five years so far – I say it a journey because I have been able to be consistent with it and have grown with it. Living ‘severally alone’ has been central to my existential questions and writing regularly has disciplined me to realize it in a spirited way.

The 1826 days since July 1, 2009 have seen 1435 posts on ‘Beyond This Life’ (excluding today and this post). Since October 16, 2011, ‘Beyond This Life’ has been consistent with my efforts to get its daily share of my life.

My blogging discipline has satisfied my urge to write and write more and has added to my other creative endeavors. I have been writing and I am writing on whatever I feel I need to write on – from politics to international issues – to human rights – to social and development issues – to art and culture – to travel experiences – to communication – to society and social media – to life and experiences – to philosophy, to individualism, to religion, to spirituality – to random reflections on the spaces around me and in my daily routine – whatever that appeals me.

I have written articles. I have written poems as well. Photographs and quotes are essential to the soul of my blog.

Though English is my primary language, I have been able to write Hindi poems as well. And many have got good reviews by the people who know Hindi well.

I have been able to write regularly because I write for myself primarily. I feel good after writing and subjecting my satisfaction to my self-scrutiny and feedback. Yes, I do share a part of my writings (and photographs) on my blogs – yes, blogs, three more that I started later on dealing with narrowed posting themes – and it is always a welcome development if others correlate with my writings or stay back to read what I write.

There are ideas and there are words looking those ideas. There are ideas generating ideas. And there are words generating more sentences.

Words do fail, as I wrote a poem ‘Words, Almost As They Fail’, but on my blogs, they come to stay with me and July 1, my Personal Blogging Day, is the day for me to revisit the days so far to look ahead.

Then, in 2009, it was Wednesday, on July 1. Now, in 2014, on its 5th Anniversary, it’s Tuesday.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/

WHY ‘SEVERALLY ALONE’?

On domain name of my first blog – Beyond This Life – http://severallyalone.blogspot.in/

Questions and observations on ‘severally alone’ were always misplaced, unlike the ones on ‘Beyond This Life’ that had fair share of sincere observations too.

Observations like ‘severally alone or severely alone’ or ‘alone’s’ existence with the word ‘severally’ or ‘severely’ (for the whacky fellows), two words capable of greatly enhancing the effect (negative or positive) of the dependent word (in this case ‘alone’) producing highly innovative or highly routine explanations (in the mind of the person putting the question), were quite a matter of fun to listen to.

Yes, I never bothered my grey-matter to explain it to them (the whacky fellows). Those who could understand it got it in one go.

But I should say ‘severally alone’ did raise quite a steady flow of observations and questions.

Those who sounded serious in their observations and methodical in their questions, who well understood the etymological and practical differences between ‘being alone’ and ‘being lonely’, but still had no clear thoughts about what being ‘severally alone’ meant, I did explain the Kabir’s philosophy to them.

Yes, ‘severally alone’ in domain name of my first blog came from the teachings and philosophy of the 14-15th Century mystic poet and saint of Varanasi whose birth place and the shrine is very near to my house in Lord Shiva’s eternal city.

After doing my bit of explaining it to the people who deserved an explanation, to make things easier, for me as well as for my readers, I put a brief paragraph on top of my blog (Beyond This Life) on what ‘being severally alone’ meant’.

The way I see it from Kabir’s philosophy, here it is:

The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

And it has been pretty good since then. Observations and questions are still there but those who still ask in spite of my blog page explaining it clearly are very few.

For those, who know me and want to draw sadistic pleasure by linking ‘severally alone in blog’s domain name’ with some ‘victim of life’s tragedies’ sort of connotation, who has time even to think about them!

🙂

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey – https://santoshchaubey.wordpress.com/